Yes . today I will be using english to update my bloggie (:
seems to be first time uh?yeahh . Watever (: Dont care about this first .
Yesterday you've promise me that you will be onlined today (:
I was waitin . Waitin and WAITINGG . Well finally .
you DID really online . i was soo happy about that .
Its because you finaly kept ur first promise . I am really happy .
Last time you use to break many many promises . I dont know why . But althrough you break promises I still forgive and love you . But the more u break the more imma sad . You break promises means that you've brokened my heart . Today someone asked me .
- Do you still love him? - Well . i answered OH HELL YEAH . YESS!
I don't know why i will give you tis kind of answer . Although I havent break up with him .
But i dont know why the feeling it stil kept deeply inside my heart . I am really dont-know-how
You said that you will change . yes . last time you promise me to change not to treat me SOOOO C.O.L.D yes you really did it . you change . you are willing to say ILY to me (: whn i first hear it I was so HAPPY it was so hard to describe my feelings . totaly happy .
Everyday I use to take a visit to your bloggie . Hmm not updated for months . BUT it was like YEARSSSS for me ): kinda upset whn your blog was not update . cause i really don't know how are you doin these few months . I asked you just now . You said that you wanna try to have a GOOD NEW LIFE . you tried and tried and tried . But you say you cant do it its just because that you still miss last time . Well i tell you . I also miss last time . When i think that yours relationship leasted 1 year 4months + ngor hou sam tong aa . we havent say break up . We dint even say any breaking up . So do we counted as break up? No. I asked many many people for answers and sudgestions . They say No. We not counted as break-up-couples . Well I really dont know how . Who understands my feeling? Who does know what should i do now ? I dont know . I feel that my self was so damn freaking useless . Am I right? ): arghh . I started to hate my self .
I really hope that i can change my life . Wad if one day i could make time go back to the past? I really hope that i have the power to make things right . I hope that i can do things in the right time . But i think i cant . I dont know why . I always does do stupid things , or even make wrong decitions . I'm that stupid . Sometimes i also thinking of knocking my head agains the wall so i can die with my brain crushed . But i know that my thinkings was so NOT TRUEE . no comen sences at all .Well sometimes i even thinking of not having any relationships at all . But i know i cant . I cant even Forget you . Well I really hope that you can tell me everything . Just the trust . I really wanan know . I dont want you to lie to me again . I really hope that you can tell me .
Well . Now cahtting with you . Hmm . get to know you moree . Can we continue your 1 year + relationship?Hmm i dont know . 选择你自己做 (: I wont force you or anything . Hope that you really understand and willing to tell me everything just about you . (: I'm waiting .
Baby . Dont you know how much i love you ?
I am defferent from others Just because I have you .
I have you And it is more than enough .
Now I really hope that you will be my star .
Now i want you just be right beside of me .
I love you no matter what happend .